When I woke up Monday morning, I was half asleep going about my business. Took the dogs out, took a shower, got dressed, and then came out in the livingroom where I saw that over 50 people were killed and over 500 people were wounded by a shooter in Las Vegas. The counts are still coming in, but they’ve already avoided calling him a terrorist, brought up mental health, bemoaned “what does this say about our country,” and interviewed family who just “had no idea this would ever happen.”
LISTEN UP MOTHERFUCKERS.
NOTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE.
WE LIVE IN THE AFTER TIMES.
I remember sitting in my office crying as they showed the Sandy Hook shootings back in 2012. I remember thinking that something would have to change, everyone always says “think of the children!” so this would be the moment. Instead we had people on the radio saying it was a hoax and calling the parents of these dead children liars. When nothing happened after that, and after all the times that followed, I knew we had chosen this future. The United States of America had decided this was a cost it was willing to bear.
Prayers, policies, thoughts, reflection, all of it is bullshit. NOTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE. We can’t even pass a budget, you think we’re going to pass gun reform with a Republican majority in both the House and Senate happy to pass all their crazy shit under the umbrella of Cheeto McRacistPants? You think we’re gonna reduce magazine sizes when we can’t even provide Puerto Rico with support and drinking water? FLINT MICHIGAN IS STILL WITHOUT CLEAN DRINKING WATER AFTER IT BECAME A PROBLEM THREE YEARS AGO.
We love to talk about how concerned we are and how our thoughts are with them and gosh isn’t it sad and then a week later we’re back to business as usual. It’s worse than a New Year’s resolution!
So excuse me if, on January 20, 2017, I accepted that we now live in the After-Times and every fucking week I learn that I have been limiting my imagination for how terrible and horrifying things can be and I DON’T BELIEVE YOUR FUCKING FALSE HORROR BECAUSE WE’VE BEEN HERE BEFORE AND YOU DID NOTHING.
BABIES WERE LAID OUT UNDER SHEETS AND YOU DID NOTHING.
BABIES. We already knew you couldn’t give a shit about teachers. BUT BABIES WERE DEAD AND YOU COULDN’T GIVE UP THAT SWEET NRA CASH TITTY FOR TWO FUCKING SECONDS.
I have seen all the things this year and then I see something else, and my initial reaction is horror but then I switch to “of course that happened, why wouldn’t it?” and move on to the next day when there might be a terribly offensive tweet or another unarmed black person being murdered or a mass shooting or maybe World War 3 or a hurricane or people losing healthcare or or or and and and…
These are the After-Times: Keep up or grow numb trying.